Yearly Tracker 2026

Decided to start learning HTML and CSS so I could make a cool Neocities site! So I've been into that recently!

I'm kind of losing steam with my learning, and even though I made huge progress (I never thought making a site like this would ever be within my skill!) there's still parts my brain simply doesn't get. I also want to do other stuff instead of obsessing over coding... like zines.

I always think I'm almost done with the site, then I find out a bunch of things that need fixing or can be improved, or added! I've been having the navigator idea for a while, though I'm still unsure about what else I can add... I'm sure I'll think of something eventually.
I keep wondering how many bizarre choices I'm making with my site, but as long as it works... '''''

I'm not as interested anymore in developing further the site so tweaks will become more rare. I'm playing more games lately and finishing a bunch of them, so I'll be mostly updating the site to reflect that. I think it's already pretty cool I learned enough to make a site like this in the first place!

The second half of February has been interesting. I took an interest in swimming and have been going to the pool for a while. My town also started holding a ton of cultural events, so I've been attending plays as well. I've been playing less games and working more, which has felt good. My mood and energy has improved, and I have good feelings about the beginning of Spring. There are still steps to be taken, but they are being taken.

I was doing pretty great and then I got a cold that sent everything out of the window. I'm healed now, but it's been a bit hard to get back on track. My coding skills are also starting to fade, whoops. I lost a bit of interest but I'll keep trying to update every now and then to remember.
I'm really enjoying swimming, so that's something I've been consistent at. Recently I also learned about the Fediverse, as well as the value of open-source software, which gives me hope for the future, in this environment where every mainstream socmed and paid software keep getting worse.
I feel like lately I've been busier than ever, despite not doing much? But I keep going outside, exercising, attending social events, and finding new things to get interested in. I feel like I'm finally living, instead letting time pass. It's nice.

It's been very tiresome lately. The fact remains I'm still a depressed and anxious autistic person, so often I can't just do stuff for long, at least not without getting terribly tired and requiring to recover for days if not weeks before I can finally do stuff again.

I had to stop going to the pool, my work output is gone, and I don't wanna do anything at all. The beginning of the last week has been a blur where I tried to simply rest, specially considering I was about to have an event that would require me to go outside and interact with people for 3 days in a row. The good news is that resting did help me, and while these days have been tiring, they also were very fun and enjoyable, and I'm feeling renewed and like my pace will soon pick up again!

I still grieve and feel ashamed that I didn't socialize as much as I wanted, due my anxiety, but in the grand scheme of things, I did better and pushed myself more than I would've in the past, so it doesn't stop being a little win.

I'm having a bit of an interest in videogame development (that's what the event was about) and I don't know if anything will come out of it, but it's something I've been researching a bit! It's funny, it seems like 2026 is finally the year where I'm taking a genuine interest in computer stuff. Maybe my brain will finally open to the idea of math and whatnot. I mean, I was able to finally learn HTML sorta, so... (I am aware HTML and CSS are vastly different from programming languages, but to me it's still huge I finally had the capacity to grasp the former!)

I'm also thinking about making more personal little sites, in other places...

It's been a bit of a tough month and I might be misjudging, but I feel like stuff will pick up soon again. I've been atending more plays without frustration; I am reading a bit more (the philosophy interest might be making a comeback), work is becoming less of an uphill battle, and even though not as often, I've been keeping up with my swimming pool visits and not dropping them entirely (VERY important).

There is some stuff/hobbies I am dropping, but I don't fear that it might mean I'll never revisit them anymore. I just seem to be in a constant cycle where my energy and interests rotate every few weeks. It's certainly annoying and inconsistent, but it seems it is who I am and how I work, and being aware of that has made things easier.

I've been resting and doing as little as possible to recover, but among the few things I've done is learning more code; I recently started the Odin Project foundation course, I don't know if I'll finish it sucessfully, but I am trying, and anything I learn will be useful regardless. Related to that, kinda, I finally started working on more little webpages, to add here.

One idea is to add shrines dedicated to the things/media/etc. that bring me joy, so I can have a little corner that brings me a smile. I also want to have a page where I share my zines or zines I've found and enjoyed I don't have any other ideas at the moment, but I know for sure I want to cultivate and expand my personal online space. If nothing else, this little website and projects have been a good creative outlet and giving me aspirations I didn't know I had.

It's been kinda rough lately. I'm still struggling with what I want to share in this website, on top of my usual life problems. I'll be more strict about keeping it as a tracker with some added thoughts, but not much more. I wanted to add a blog but I really don't feel that's something I feel comfortable with.

The second half of May has been a bit more kind to me, and there's a few positive things I've been doing.

My interest for learning coding and developing this site further (outside of the usual little updates) is right now very low so I've dropped that until it comes back to me. My creativity is right now elsewhere. Specifically, writing and music. A recent good new is that I've finally unlocked the black keys in my piano lessons, so that made me feel very achieved! It's something I've been looking forward for a few months now.

June has been going pretty well, actually. There's some stuff I struggle with but I'm getting to do a lot of what I want to. Returning to the gym and picking up the workout routine and diet, as well as running. Of course I still swim, too. I'm not going outside super often these days, but I earned a break at home because I did go outside a LOT during the first half of June.
This month I'm not practicing code or music as much, but I'm doing other stuff, like playing videogames again and focusing more in work. It's being a good month, but I hope it gets better and I get the chance to go out and have fun again.

Also starting trying my hand at photography!

In July I spent a LOT of time drawing. Mostly for work but also some Art Fight. It's my first time participating so I went really strong at first before inevitably losing steam.

I'm glad with all the work I managed to do this month but I can also feel the burnout, so I've been trying to slow down. Unfortunately, that wasn't the only con: drawing so much made it so I wanted to do less of everything else, and my screen time is increasing again. Luckily I keep showing up for my exercise time, but I'm cautious. I'm hoping that once July ends, I can leave that feeling of "must draw" behind, and pick up again all the other activities I've been neglecting, specially my music learning and my reading.

Other than that, things are going well enough, and I played a lot of videogames. My interest in coding and writing decreased a LOT, so sadly this page and my journals are getting the worst of it.

July ended with a string of terrible news that beat me down. I guess I was right to be cautious as per my last entry. I'm trying to remain strong but it is genuinely hard in the face of what happened. I still try to get up and get things done, and surprisingly, I manage to do so. Still, I wish I had more strength, support and comfort.

August has been generally lazy. Out of chance I attended a little zine fair, where I had a great time and acquired a bunch of very cool zines, booklets, sketchbooks and some more. Reminded me of why I love zines!

I've been writing more, organizing and cleaning, as well as doing more manual stuff. Digital has been feeling exhausting lately. I'm wondering how Fall and Winter will feel, since I feel like a significant different person from who I've been in the last years.

Also considering adding more sections to this page, but since I'm not in a coding mood plus want to avoid additional time at my PC, I'll likely do nothing for now.